First I started off with 24 UV treatments to help heal my skin. At first i was a bit worried as I get claustrophobic and you have to stand in quite a small space to receive the treatment.
Once I stepped inside and the door was closed I felt ok which was a relief. I started off going inside for less than a minute, this has now gradually become 5 minutes.
In the beginning even though I was going inside for less than a minute I got the most terrible sunburn which as you can imagine didn’t help my skin at all. Every time I would come out I would feel super itchy.
By the 15th session I started to feel better. By the 24th session my stomach, back, neck, face and breast had cleared. It took a little longer for my ankles, wrists, lower leg and elbow area to heal. They are still healing now after 5 months of uv treatment. I’d say my skin is 80% healed with quite a few scars.
I try my best to get natural rays from the sun, Dead Sea salt baths, moisturising and the UV treatments which has now gone down to two a week.
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It is amazing how happy you become when you start doing things for your own sense of happiness rather than others.
Just taking out time to spend time with myself has been very enlightening for me. Physically I wasn’t able to do much so I started I started writing about some of my experiences. Just having somewhere to offload stopped me from keeping feelings and emotions locked inside.
I started walking three times a week for an hour with a very very good friend of mine. Not only did this provide me with fresh air and physical exercise but allowed our relationship to evolve in such a beautiful way. And in return she’s taking on some of my new practices too and incorporating them into her lifestyle. Which always helps when you have friends on the same page as you.
Yoga now and again reinforces everything that I’ve been doing to improve my mind body and soul.
In addition to everything I’ve started doing I met one of the most beautiful souls which has given me such a positive boost in all aspects. Which I am thankful for everyday. Sometimes it is nice having someone there that just makes you smile no matter how moody you have secretly been throughout the whole day.
Another important thing I have done for myself is just not wasting my energy on anything that I feel could cause me harm in any type of way. When I mean harm I’m talking about stress, anxiety, pain, arguments and soul swallowing relationships. So basically any kind of unnecessary negativity.
All in all I’m feeling extremely good within myself.
Transforming from the person I was last year to the person I am today has been an amazing journey. Each day when I wake up I say thank you for what ever I’m thankful for.
The moment I started looking after myself is the moment I realised I am the key 🔑.
But the journey doesn’t stop there. I am still growing every day.
Spending quality time with such beautiful precious people waters me and enhances my growth 🌸
Every week I find myself adding one more piece to the puzzle. Slowly getting back to me but a new and improved version💎. Learning about myself more and more everyday.
Recently I have noticed advances in my moods and in my skin. For example I haven’t felt anxious or depressed for a while now. I’m paying my body and mind a lot more attention which I know wouldn’t of been possible if I had gone back to work. Though I miss being at work I know I’ve made the right decision for myself. Fingers crossed I will be back at work by the end of June beginning of July.
The storm is nearly over and I can’t wait for the next chapter.
I need space to think about how I really feel. When you have to much going on it can be difficult to suss out your feelings towards any situation. Am I angry, am I sad, am I happy, am I hungry …..
It has gotten to the point where I can’t continue to keep choosing you over my happiness. Because you’d win every time .I’d rather be unhappy and have you there than be happy without you. I think subconsciously I worry about having to let you go which has to happen. But at the same time I feel peace as I know everything will work out the way that it is supposed to. I now understand that it is ok to love somone and continue loving them even if your apart.
Now let’s keep the ball rolling.